Friday, March 12, 2010

Healthy Fear

The thoughts on sin and the repercussions they bring has really burdened me this whole year. Probably due to my own sins that have been the same sins for several years now. They say God punishes the wicked, this is true, but God also warns the righteous (and wicked). Go has been tossing signs at me left and right in regards to refraining from certain sins that have held me back from intimacy with Him. Im not going to go into it, but he has been railing me with signs, and this past week he has revealed to me that the next time it will not be a sign, but a repercussion. What is it to fear God? Its definitely not the same fear you have in a Freddy movie, more like the fear you have of someone that can harm you, but they don't. God has the power to do anything, including harm/judge those he loves. He told me he would do just that. His grace has abounded in my sin recently but he revealed to me this warning. I expect if should heed it. he doesn't just tell you something and it not happen. I have missed out on the fear of God lately, but in that moment i knew that God should be feared. A reverent fear. Like Aslan in C.S. Lewis' works, Chronicles of Narnia. He isnt safe, but he is good. This makes me understand that we must fear God, for he is capable of raining judgment upon us, and he is Omnipotent. I do not fear God due to him being scary....i fear God out of his might, and personally i fear misisng out on Him. He is our treasure, He is our reward. Our lives are to glorify him, without Him we are nothing. (no matter what our insufficient egos tell us....) I fear dissapointing the One who loves me the most. The One who graciously chose me to receive salvation, the one that desires me...(and us) He wants to be with us, when we sin, we choose wordly things over God....i fear the absence of God. That is my fear. I do not want to choose anything that would cause me to be absent from experiencing God. God wants one thing, unfortunately we want more. I pray that i will give God the one thing he wants....ALL of me. I do not want to hold on to sin, the world, or relationships that keep me from experiencing His glory. He is my King, he alone i worship. I desire to be in His presence forwver, when i choose the world i reject that. Those are the times i fear. I have been afraid of who i am in Him, and where he wants me to go. That fear is not healthy, it is of this world and the devil. I relinquish those fears to the one that i fear the most, My King. This verse revealed to me the power of God and the jealousy he has over those he loves (humankind) I fear this God....I want to be with this God, not agianst him. Each moment i choose the world, i reject Him. These verses reveal a God i never want to reject, he is Mighty

If a man does not repent, God will whet his sword;
he has bent and readied his bow;
13he has prepared for him his deadly weapons,
making his arrows fiery shafts.
14Behold, the wicked man conceives evil
and is pregnant with mischief
and gives birth to lies.
15He makes a pit, digging it out,
and falls into the hole that he has made.
16His mischief returns upon his own head,
and on his own skull his violence descends.

Psalm 7:12-16

Do you want to be this person...i know that i do not. There is no way in HELL i want to be anything like the person described in these verses.

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