Tuesday, January 03, 2012

Why must i be content with being so ignorantly selfish and shamelesslessly focused on nothing more than my happiness. I must cling to the joy that is only found in God and stop chasing these false gospels that our culture promotes. My heart cannot take it nor function without being solely reliant on the one who called me out of sin and into life. My will is strongly opposed to Christ and his sufferings, and it is a constant struggle to defeat my self and let Christ reign. The stubborn self righteousness that permeates from my inner sinful self is disgusting. Nothing less than sacraficing all that i am and filling up with all the He is, that is the only anser to any spiritual battle. God does not desire a weak, self-content, fool hardy individual devoid of His grace. His grace is more than enough for me to live, and i continuously telling myself this is the battle. I shouldn't have t otell myself that God is enough...i should know it. Ultimately i do know it, the problem lies in self love over the love of Christ and his righteousness. The church of Galatia was struggling with the gospels that refused t oplace Christ first. I am afraid i have fallen into this gross misconception of the Christian life. This may be the reason i abhor most aspects of the current church. I want a refreshing view of a familiar CHrist, not a new view of a false christ that places an emphasis on me instead of He. My prayer is that my heart is changed to remember an old friend, not a new companion. Jesus isn't my homeboy, he may be my friend but ultimately Jesus is my King...