Monday, August 24, 2009

Reading Francis Chan's "Crazy Love" has really made me think about my love for God, but more importantly, His love for me. Over the years, I (as well as most men) experience the desire to approach a woman in courtship and we desire to love them. Many times (or should i say most of the time in my case), these girls choose to reject a man's offering to a dating relationships. This is how our relationship with God can be. God loves unconditionally, yet we reject his love for our own endeavors far too often. We decide we would rather partake in sin, or watch tv or browse the net for a few more hours instead of seeking him and growing into an intimacy that we desire (at least say we do).

"God doesnt needs us, but STILL wants us, we desperatley need God yet do not want him most of the time"

This quote is so true and is the influence for this post. I find that most of the time i do not desire God, yet all of the time i need God's love to sustain me. Its a funny thing because it mirrors human relationships to me (obviously we are His creation after all) We desire love, yet sometimes the other party rejects this love. God desires us, yet we reject him so often (in fact every time we sin , we do this) It is not possible for us to desire God all of the time, after all we are sinners and imperfect beings. I just pray and long for the day that i can want God as much as a human can. (even then we i will stil be short, but i still long for that) I pray for intimacy and a constant awareness of my God in all moments. God has given us everything, why should we settle for only giving him a little bit?

Saturday, August 22, 2009

Who am I to choose my own direction? WHo am i to choose what i desire over what God wants? Why do i so often choose my own self-interests, my own will and my own desires over the perfect and awesome plan of God that he has for me. So many times i choose to do my own thing, i choose to do what i want. I want to be what i want to be. What a horrible view of life. I need to be who God desires me to be, i need to choose what God wants, not what i want. Who am i to think that my way is better? God's way is perfect. How many times must one fail to realize this. Life is not about self-pleasure or the pursuit of what we are told is the "good life". The hedonism in our life should be what Piper calls Christian hedonism. We should be so enveloped by and continuously glorifying God that our pleasure is to be found in Him. We are not called to be "do gooders' or "law abiders", we are called to love. We are called to Glorify God and make him known. We should reflect all that is good in God to others. He created us, we must decide if we are to worship him or worship this world. Too often i choose the world. Good thing that we have been forgiven and our debts are paid in full, for if they werent we would all be doomed to perish in hell. God gave us life, he gives us a 2nd life in Him, but he also gives death to those who are not his children. I long to fear God again. No one seems to fear God these days, instead they act as if he is a great grandfather who is all loving and weak...yes, God is loving, but he is also strong and mighty and capable of doing things that should make us tremble on our knees. I want the fear of God back in my life, i want others to know the fear of God as well.

Tuesday, August 04, 2009

You. I need more of.
Me. I need less of.
Incomplete without you,
Complete with you.

Helpless, broken, beaten down, empty, totally depraved, nature of sin, devoid of joy, separated, incapable of good, selfish, lost.

redeemed, whole, healed, filled, power over sin, full of vibrant joy, united, righteous, selfless, found.

words....all just words. one word: indescribable....